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My couch is going down.

My sister asked what I wanted to do for my birthday this year and I responded with a kegger and a couch burning.  Josh and I had already discussed this couch’s days are numbered.  It’s only 4 years old, the coolest couch I have ever owned and in relatively good shape, but we are done with it.

This couch is where I have been sad for the past 3 years.  It has seen the majority of my tears, depression, and catatonia.  I wake up, get on the couch, watch tv, eat all of my meals, and spend all of my time on this f’n couch. I’m on it right now.   It has got to go be destroyed.  Maybe it’s silly, juvenile,  or wasteful, but I don’t care.  I’m going to burn it and it’s going to feel great.

I want to be happy.  I want to do everything I can to make me happy again.  My only goal is to be happy and do happy things.  So in the next couple of weeks between now and my birthday I’m dying my hair purple, learning Spanish, working out, cleaning out my cluter, taking some long walks with Scooter, lovin on my man, doing a cleanse, going roller skating, reading some good books, listening to good music, hanging out with good people, and burning this fucking couch.

Sorry for the f bombs.  Then next month we go to Mexico.  This makes me very happy.  Thanks mom!!!!


8 thoughts on “My couch is going down.

  1. I love those goals and burning the couch doesn’t sound wasteful- it sound necessary! Purple?!?! I love that! I wish I had enough guts to do that 🙂 And I love roller skating- I haven’t been skating in forever. I still think about you everyday and every time I log onto my blog I hope to see a post from you. (I hope that doesn’t sound creepy 🙂 Still sending prayers.

    • Thanks girl. I have to say I look forward to your posts as well. I’m so grateful for the sisterhood I have found through blogging. I hate all of the loss and grief we share but I love the support and comradery. We all have the same goal and we are all pulling for each other. Thanks for all of your encouragement. Xoxo.
      I’ll post a pic of the purple hair. Cross your fingers it looks ok.

  2. Katie Loeb says:

    You go girl! I absolutely love your to do list! Knock yourself out. Do whatever makes you joyful. You’ve earned it.

    As for burning the couch, it’s a symbolic gesture, but an important one. Sometimes things need to become ash before we can sweep them away. You do whatever you need to do.

    I’ll be happy to practice Spanish with you. You just let me know when…

    Hugs and much love,

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