On Sunday, December 22, 2013 at 9:16 PM Linden Lilac was stillborn. She weighed 4 lbs 2 oz and was 19 inches. She was beautiful and perfect. We got to bath her, take photos, and all spent the night together. We had 12 hours and 45 minutes as a family of 3.
Even though we knew this could happen, nothing can prepare you for birth or death. Seeing her for the first time; I knew what love is. The absolute awe of creation. Saying goodbye 13 hours later I still can not comprehend. My whole being aches for her. I would trade my very existence for another moment with her or just for her.
Thank you for reading about her and sharing this journey with me. I know everyone will feel bad for Josh and I but instead of sending condolenses embrace this day, hug your child for an extra minute, don’t stress about the small things, kiss your partner, do something kind for someone else, take a walk in nature, appreciate everything.