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37 weeks: Dumbo

I don’t know what to write about.  I have been on this minute to minute emotional rollercoaster and I’m tired.  It does not help  that I have not been sleeping well and I have had the song “Baby Mine” from Dumbo  stuck in my head for the past few days.   It just makes me cry.  Here’s the link so you can cry too if you like.

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CORf1liT9cE&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DCORf1liT9cE

Some patients brought Linden presents yesterday.  It was so sweet and I held it together for a bit but then had to sit and cry in the office for about 15 minutes.  I’m grateful for my job but I am excited to be done and not have to fake excited or fake happy about pregnancy questions.  It just doesn’t feel right to not tell people the truth, but who wants to really hear the truth anyway?

Then I think: Should I be spreading awareness of Trisomy 13?  Am I doing a disservice to Linden?

Yoi. I am tired.

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning and will update about Linden after.

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2 thoughts on “37 weeks: Dumbo

  1. Mary Hixon says:

    You can do no disservice to Linden, as evidence by your writing, because you love her so much. You inspire people. You are educating people that not everything goes by the book. That not all people live charmed lives. That split or extra chromosomes happen when they least should. You educated people that through constraints you must keep a smile on your face and tackle each day. Some times sleepless. Some times angry. Always sad but still smiling. You and Josh are amazing that you hold each other up when you both could collapse. PS That song made me cry the first time and every time I hear it. I love you….. Baby of mine..

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