update

30 weeks

We had our monthly visit with Dr. Khouzami today and everything seems to be going well.  Heartbeat sounds good, my belly is measuring normal, and baby V is kicking up a storm.  We have another appointment in 3 weeks and will not have another sonogram for 6 weeks.  Dr. said we will just play it by ear and take things as they come.  He also read over our birth plan and said everything looked good and our request should all be met.  I am really grateful that we stuck with Dr. Khouzami and hopefully Dr. Chan will end up being our neonatologist.  Nothing but the best for my girl.

On Tuesday my therapist told me I need to try and find joy in this.  Something my mom had said to me also and I had forgotten.  It is something you think is absolutely impossible, until you are so tired and sad and full of fear that it is just consuming you.  You don’t give-up but submit to everything and then you can find joy.  That is where I am.  All of those things still exist inside me but there is joy also.  Baby V made it to 30 weeks so who knows what she is capable of.  That is worth some happiness.

That being said, Josh and I decided we are going to do something special for her.  I’m pretty excited about it.

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6 thoughts on “30 weeks

  1. Mary Hixon says:

    As hard as it is, you are finding the joy. This brings me joy and pride. You come from a long line of celebrators – Thanks Frannie and Annie!

  2. Jess says:

    Hey honey, I just found this and I don’t even know what to say but that I love you and that you deserve every ounce of happiness. I am grateful to read that you are starting to find it! Some moments mean everything…hold on to them and smile.

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